Winter Wonders....

I would love to be able to say that I'm seeing the beauty of winter all around me, but with the inversion here in the Salt Lake City area, it's not so pretty. Actually, it's making everyone sick, which is not fun when you have a newborn to protect and care for. So for me, the wonders of winter are being found within my home, not without. The ultimate creation is the creation of life. Nothing comes close to the miracle of birth. On January 13th my husband and I literally caught our 5th child as he was born (our midwife and assistant was close by). It's been over a month now and these past weeks have been full of many wonders as we watch this tiny little boy grow and develop. It always amazes me as I get to know my children's personalities from such a young age and see how it just "fits" them as they grow. Their personality may mature as they grow, but they are all so unique their character is just so "them" and continues to be so through the years. The most exciting part for me is watching them as they create, and noticing what it is that they do create. Each child has a knack for something and a desire to do their best and show it off to the world. I love it when they feel that their creation is perfect and they have no hesitation to share it. Unfortunately there comes a point when they start to feel their creation is not good enough and lose that freedom of feeling they're "good enough". As adults we often question our abilities and apologize for the results of our best efforts thinking only of the flaws and not of the accomplishment. I'm guilty of that to a fault. I have a desire to learn photography and have been told I have an "eye" for it, but I don't see it as clearly as others have expressed it. It's something I am working on. I'm trying to get past my thoughts of inadequacy and working towards learning and actually doing and sharing my love of photography, even with the flaws that only I can see.